I have a notebook and, each day, I write down three things that are good/went well and three things that I'm thankful for. It's really helped me remember how awesome so much of my life is. As I read back over this journal, of sorts, a few theme really stick out...
- My husband, Mark...although we've hit a very rough patch in our relationship, it feels good that we are working through everything. He is working hard to rectify the situation that he created and to make me feel loved. He's doing the right things. He is making me feel special, like I'm his priority and that feels good. We've hit rock bottom and we are still together. He's my very best friend, handsome, hilarious, intelligent, a good man, a great father, an awesome provider (whether he's working outside of the home or completing our huge list of projects here on the farm) and I am absolutely in love with him.
- My kids, Tiff, Kait, Gage, Drake and Cora (...and even Kait's boyfriend, David)...my kids are awesome. So different but similar enough to find a lot of common ground between them. When we get together, we often sit around the kitchen table or in the living room and it's loud and so much laughter and teasing going on. They are all healthy and becoming "good grown ups" (in my role as a mother, if I can be friends with my children as they grow up, that is great - but my goal is to create good grown ups...and with that, many times there are lessons to be learned - good and bad). I'm very proud of al of them.
- Work...my job is truly an awesome job. It offers great benefits, is flexible, makes me feel like I'm changing the world a little bit (I manage an energy efficiency program for a utility company), and I'm thankful that I have it.
- Our home...a year and a half ago, if you read far enough back in this journey, you'll know the struggle we had to find and purchase this home. I'm so proud that we were able to, after all these years, become home owners...and not just to any home...a 130 year old farm house, with a wrap around porch, 4 bedrooms, 1 1/2 bathrooms, a living room AND a parlor, a dining room large enough to seat 20+ people for a sit down meal, comfortably, on 1.3 acres.
- The farm...I love this place...separate from the home, our barn and animals give me so much happiness (and stress..Ahem...talking to you Steve and Itty...but mostly the happiness thing)...but I love to walk out to the barn and call their names and hear the roar of Baaas and Maas that come from our crew of animals. It makes me laugh, every, single time. I'll have to see if I can get a recording of that.